Trapped in my own web of life
As you get older you start to look more at what you have done and the decisions you have made. It’s funny because I have seen so many people give up and start all over whether it’s in their relationships or there jobs or life in general.
I have come to realize that this is part of the process of life, that point where you take stock and re evaluate things and either make changes or continue on with the choices you have set with all its baggage and connections/ties, in the hope that you can turn them your way some how.
Yes I’m at that midlife crisis stage I suppose but also I truly believe that I am solely responsible for the decisions and choices I have made so I’m not refreshing and starting a new just plowing through in the hope things might turn my way somehow.
I always used to say that back in the old days (Edwardian times when life expectancy was mid twenties) peoples would only live to their mid twenties due to the way life and nowadays people are living 3 to 4 times that. It’s like having more than one bite at the apple and many people do just that and start all over from scratch but for me it’s about trying my best to change what I don’t like about my life and the decisions I have made from within, without a reset if at all possible, I’m not disappointed with the way things have turned out but I do feel like a worn out shoe if only I can cut at least some of the redundant ties I have made in the past and twist things more in my direction without losing everything I still hold dear.
A very abstract blog I know but to those that understand it will make total sense I’m sure.